Mirabella. 18; senior @ LHS. SFC, always. Sweet yet stubborn, calm and quite collected. Random hang outs and late night adventures are the best. Food, fun, and laughs = my 3 favorite things. Focused and determined to make the best out of everything even when unavoidable events get in the way. Life's too short, just be happy.
where its to the point I’m craving a cigarette? Fuck, what is this madness.
MM. Don’t smoke. mmkay. Smoking’s bad, mmkay.
And don’t do mara-ju-wana. Mara-ju-wana is bad, mmkay.
Too late, buddy. Been down that street already haha. Alllll bad.
where its to the point I’m craving a cigarette? Fuck, what is this madness.
Damn, THROWBACK much?
"I guess what I’m trying to say is, I don’t think you can measure life in terms of years. I think longevity doesn’t necessarily have anything to do with happiness. I mean happiness comes from facing challenges and going out on a limb and taking risks. If you’re not willing to take a risk for something you really care about, you might as well be dead."
— Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider
She’s the one you call when you’re bored because she makes you laugh. She’s the one you talk to when you’re feeling down because she’s willing to lend an ear and be a friend. She’s not the one you call when you need a date to your company’s Christmas party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night. She’s the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find “The One.” You know, the one you keep in the MEANTIME.
She’s not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don’t look at her as a “real” woman, either. She’s not slutty enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in the light. She’s too laid-back, too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by. She’s too understanding, too comfortable. Doesn’t make you feel nervous or excited the way a “real” woman does. But she’s cool, nice and funny, and attractive enough that when you’re lonely and need intimate female companionship, she’ll do just fine.
You don’t have to wine and dine her because she knows the real you already, and you don’t have any facades to keep up, no pretense to preserve. You’re not trying to get anything of substance out of her. She’s not easy, but you know that she cares about you and is attracted to you. And you know that you don’t have to explain yourself or the situation, that she’ll be able to cope with the fact that this isn’t the beginning of a relationship or that there’s any possiblity that you have any real romantic feelings for her.
It won’t bother her that you’ll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, and go on a date with the woman you’ve been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She’ll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the date went. She’s just so cool.. why can’t all women be like that?!
But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don’t.. because to you, the situation between the two of you isn’t important enough to merit any real thought) you know that it’s really not fair.
You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the fun you two have, you don’t think she’s good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it’s mostly her fault, because she doesn’t have to give in to your needs - she could really play the hard-to-get [expletive] like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to. But you and she both know that she probably couldn’t pull it off. Maybe she’s too short, or a little overweight, or has big birthmark on her forehead, or works at Taco Bell, or just really not that type.
Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman. So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover, and you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman.
You’ll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding, and she’ll laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux.
She doesn’t captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile.
Mainly, she blends in with the crowd. She’s safe. She doesn’t want to be the center of attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room. But she wants to turn someone’s head. She wants to be SPECIAL to someone, too. We all do.
She has feelings. She has heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger heart than any woman you’ve ever known because she’s had a front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway.
She obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you’ve given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.Damn. Definitely worth the read, thats fsure.
Bold statements. Yup.
:’( I don’t want to become this girl.
I hate that feeling with every being of my body. I rather feel sadness than disappointment, hands down. Due to my personal experiences, I’ve been quite accustomed to disappointment probably my whole entire life. Whether it be about friends, family, school, whatever, feeling disappointment is almost a daily thing for me. I’m not trying to exaggerate or make my life sound miserable because it isn’t. Everyone has their good and bad days but for me this has just been one bad week. I really shouldn’t complain, I’m blessed with a lot of great things and amazing people in my life. Academically I’m not doing all that great but hey, you learn. There are just so many lessons in life that you learn throughout your life, its hard to remember every single one. I try not to let things knock me down but I’m human and I’m bound to feel a vast array of emotions. It’s just disappointing knowing that I’m capable of many things but that I limit myself to what I deem is most convenient for me. I should never settle for less, but in fact, should opt for more. I don’t know how I can when there just seems to be so many obstacles in the way.
"We enter the world alone and we leave it alone and everything that happens in between we owe it to ourselves to find a little company. We need help, we need support, otherwise we are in it by ourselves. Strangers, cut off from each other, and we forget, just how connected we all are. So instead, we choose love, we choose life, and, for a moment, we feel just a little bit less alone."
— Grey’s Anatomy (via quote-book)
I’m on academic probation. MEANING if I don’t improve my grades for this semester I will get kicked out.
Great. Just great.
LOVE LOVE LOVE.
"Getting ahead in a difficult profession requires avid faith in yourself. That is why some people with mediocre talent, but with great inner drive, go much further than people with vastly superior talent."
— Sophia Loren
I probably just got myself into the most confusing situation of my life.
